On 23rd November 2016, my Mum filmed the moment Bodie trundled off DMA's lorry. I didn't know her, she didn't know me.
I'm not really one for being overly sloppy and nor am I particularly a believer in 'everything happens for a reason' I feel like that's just something people say when life is kicking you in the nuts and they want you to feel better. I know I keep saying it, but I really wasn't looking for a horse and even when she arrived in the stable, I had convinced myself, it was only a loan, I could hand her back in a month, I'd even got the money ready for the return trip, I could find a share instead, get a smaller one... a less ginger one.
I can still remember how I felt being alone with her in the stable after everyone had left, with dread in the pit of my stomach and thinking 'what have I just done?'.Did you know horses have a brand new set of shoes every 6 weeks? Because I didn't. Did you know they need a dentist? Because I didn't. Did you know that saddles have to fit the horse and you can't just grab one from the rack? Because I didn't. It has been a very steep learning curve from the day she landed in her stable.
Anyway, the short story is we get on REALLY well, she isn't the easiest mare, I don't mean riding, she is amazing to ride, although can be a bit opinionated when it comes to jumping. We take off when Bodie says we are taking off, this could be on three or it could be on one, regardless we are taking off and you are either going with her or being left behind. I've realised my job here is to just let her go and I counter balance this by repeatedly shouting expletives whether we are at home or at a competition. What I really mean is sometimes she struggles with feed, sometimes she has days where she is feeling a bit stiff, sometimes she has days where she wants to be a bit chestnut, sometimes she is narcoleptic and sometimes she needs extra support. I always correct people when they say 'she is lucky to have you' and actually I find it a bit embarrassing because the truth of the matter is they have got it all wrong. I promised her that so long as she always looked after me, I would always look after her and she has never let me down.
So long as she always looked after me, I would always look after her.
As we approach Bodie's 30th birthday, sometimes I catch myself overthinking, it's so easy to get trapped into looking and comparing your own situation to others. I still haven't learnt to block out the 'noise' but I am very slowly learning to take each day as it comes and enjoy the ride. Like my friend says, she has a heart like a lion, let her have some fun!